OMG! I can't believe this!
I'm screwing up every single bond that I have with my friends!
First, Jessica.
Glad it's over but still...
And now TK!
FUCK! What's wrong with me recently?
It's not like I've got too many friends!
I'm already so ALONE!
AARRRGGGHHHH!

I sent him this video via Twitter and it's about people being judgmental of others.
Fuck lar!
I should have used more of my fucking brains!
Even I would have thought that the sender thinks I'm judgmental!
But NO! I just wanted to let him see how his physical behavior is like when he starts describing everything else!

Now, I bet he's so fucking mad!
I feel like fucking myself with bare live wires so as to punish myself!
OMG!
He won't even talk to me now!
SHIT LAR!
I'll never sleep a better night after this!

At this point of time, no one will ever understand how much I'm hating myself.
And now I bet he fucking hates me.
He's like a brother to me and now we're like...
I DON'T FUCKING KNOW!
OMFG!

I should just go and die now!
I can't believe it!
It sucks to know that I totally deserved all of that shit!

So who's next?
Who am I gonna be fucked-up with now?
Something's fucking wrong with me...

FUCK!

And I watch Paranormal Activity, finally.
Wasn't too scary, just the very last bit.

God, please help me!
I don't want to lose them now!

Finally, we had a class BBQ!
I've been waiting so fucking long for this.
Too bad it's too short larh.
Pictures on Facebook!
Go see!

Went star gazing at the Leonid Meteor Shower at Japanese Garden with Ica, TK and Gadis.
YAY!

-But tonight I could fall too soon under this beautiful moonlight.-

Being the one that kept receiving the deck of cards in multiplies of 5 or more in a game of SnapJack, I saw like only 2 faint streaks of light across the lonely canvas.
The other 3 idiots saw 9.
WTF.
And I FINALLY saw Orion's belt!
YAY!
And the North Star!
Just learnt how to spot it!
What lousy eyes I happen to own.
Maybe charming eyes lose out to others in the scope of vision or something.
But I went largely because of the company.
I just can't help from feeling so distant from them all.
When will it be my turn to take my A's and become enlisted?

And we were talking about 2012 and and if it may just happen.
That chat made me realised how far I'm fallen away from God.
I don't remember the parables in the bible anymore.
I want to go to church again.
I haven't even been baptized.
Well, I should have been like a few years ago but I decided to skip church.
Who would be so nice to take to to your church?

Just came back from studying at QTSS.
This is so disappointing...
This cleaner started to chat with me.
She here for only a few months.
And she's encountered many bad students.
Smoking students, hugging-and-touching students, students that go into the wrong toilets on purpose and ust plain disrespectful students.
I nearly forgot that QTSS is a neighborhood school ever since I left.
I told her to be very careful herself because most of these people are from gangs and that she shouldn't offend them.
I also said that I'll do something about it.
So I'm currently trying to contact the head prefect to talk about this situation.
First, the basic respect for our school cleaners.
It's time the school show some emphasis on that matter.
And second, about the smokers and how to tackle them.
If it's not gonna work then I'm gonna write to the school itself.

And while I was studying and listening to the radio at the same time, Ms. Vandetta of The V Spot introduced to listeners to Taylor Swift's SNL.
It's SOOOOO FUCKING FUNNY!!!
I've come to the conclusion that Taylor Swift is a very cute person!
Just like a class clown!
HAHAHA!!!
Take a look and you'll know what I mean:

HAHAHA!!!

I have also come to realise that Shanghai Tang never failed to disappoint me with their apparels.
It has a brilliant mix of east and west and every single piece will blow you away.
You'll never, ever get bored of Shanghai Tang.
You won't even feel neutral about any of their items.
It's no wonder the prices are so so so high.
I wonder if I'll get a chance to work there.
Hmm...

I'm gonna start with last Saturday.
The night I'm suppose to dress up as someone and attend a Halloween party.
Well, the day before, I didn't went to shop for stuff with Ica and Company.
So she's a little pissed but still fine.
The next day, Rachel told me not to go.
I was like WTF?
So I didn't turn up and dangerously ended my friendship with Ica.
What she don't know about until yesterday were the messages I sent her through Rachel which she conveniently left out.
Once she knew about it, she realised it was serious and we finally talked.
It's great we're still best friends but because of this, I realised I'm extremely down-to-earth.
But I can still afford to rock out with the heavenly people.
Now I just plain angry with Rachel.
It was her all along!
So, whatever.
I'm leaving it in her hands to do whatever she wants with our friendship now.
Ms Kim's so right.
Making a friend is giving someone the right to abuse you.
I'm so naive.

And about yesterday's failed Flash-mob.
I'm bittersweet now.
We had so little time to get people to join in, learn the moves, coordinate with one another and we practised so hard and yet, it didn't happen!
Like at the last minute!
Everyone was looking forward to it!
It's like OMG?!
What the fuck?
Someone said that we were toyed with.
But I think that we were toyed by the very person who said that.
Glad he's leaving for good.
When the 2 VPs heard about this little something, their faces just lighted up as thought they have been waiting for that moment since a million years ago!
That boy, Sellek was quite right.
Everything was going fine before he knew about it.
It was like crushing a small child's dream, you know?
Nevertheless, I'll have to thank everyone who spared time and energy to practise with us.
Even though it was kinda like a wasted effort, I think everyone had fun and made a few new friends too.
Pei Xuan, thanks for trying your very best to help make sure it's all good.
And another appreciation goes to Kwai Ga, who came up with such an idea and her wonderful classmates who also did their part to rock out behind the scenes.
To the teachers, especially the one and only Handsome Ng and our VPs, thank you for your fullest support.
This is so not how I thought the last day of school will end because the atmosphere in school suddenly dropped to a minimum that day.
And to the few J2s who were waiting to watch it, sorry to let you down.

As for me, I'm just looking forward to pictures and videos!
I thought I looked like crap when dancing but people thought otherwise.
That's why I'm so glad this thing even started!
Haha!

And finally, on the last day of school, 09S06 became a fun class!
Like what took that long?
YAY!
BBQ@AMANDA'S next Wednesday!
I'm so looking forward to that!

I hate being stressed-up about everything and I also hate doing nothing at all!!!
AAARRRGHHHH!!!

After Lex asked me to go and visit the Scouts yesterday night, I had a terrific idea!
WHY NOT GO BACK TO QTSS AND STUDY?!
Study as in, you know, revise stuff?
And I did!
QTSS have undergone PRIME and it's like a very cooling place to study at!
It's not like JJ where it's very hot and humid everywhere besides the stuffy and air-conditioned classrooms.
And the best part is there's basically no one in school on Saturdays!
That's easy to explain: Because 'O' Levels are to simple so you don't really have to study for it!
Too bad QTSS closes at 1pm on Saturdays.
I'm glad I've already completed my first Chemistry tutorial for next year.
So much for revising only during mid-December!

I also tried my best to avoid being recognised by any Scout until after their meeting.
LOL!

I should go back there and study whenever I have the time to do so!

And the Nike+ 10k Human Race happened today.
I'm gonna make sure I'll be the first few to sign up next year!
I really wanted to join this run leh!
The spaces are taken up so fast and by the time I reached home, registration's closed!
WTF?!
Again, when Nike opened another 500 slots, I can't register because I'll have to be at Wisma at 11am and I've also got school that day!
WTF! WTF! WTF! WTF! WTF! WTF! WTF! WTF!
LET ME TRY OUT MY FIRST RUN LEH!!!!!

Enough with that shit.

There's something else to look forward to:
Gunther von Hagens' BODY WORLDS & The Cycle of Life
Who wanna go with me? -http://bit.ly/2hdnwP
Buy the tickets online now and we get 20% discount!
Tell me quick hor!

Thursday was fun.
But it was because I insisted on staying away from my class.
I helped out at TKD and moving people.
LOL!
I kinda enjoy doing a service to others more than receiving it.
Makes me feel more occupied than lost.

Skipped school on Friday but I went to cut my hair at the same old place.
YAY!
I found a way to grow more hair without getting caught.
I failed GP and I passed Chemistry!
LOL!
But my 60% was excellent.
So I'm still gonna pass GP overall.
YAY!

Then we went to NYNY for dinner/receive mom's birthday gift as a member of NYNY.
For the first time, NYNY sucked!
While walking to meet my Mom and my sister, I bumped into the MCS people visiting my neighbor.
YAY!
HAHAHA!!!
And I got told by Amanda that the guy living opposite has the same birthday as my Mom!
WOW!

Made a mega-grand dinner for Mommy tonight!
And I busted the oven with honey!!!!
LOL!!!!
Well, nothing like that can't be saved with a little cleaning up.
I really loved my food tonight.
I should consider cooking for everyone every night!
YAY!
I made mom uber-happy on her brith+1-day!

I've finally uploaded some photos on Facebook.
Photos of my own.
It's just strange that I don't get to take photos with people anymore this year and I hate it!

Confession-time!
Confession #1: I hated being an OGL.
Confession #2: I hate my current class.
Confession #3: I realised my best friends aren't really my best friends.
Confession #4: I'm living proof of an irony.
Confession #5: I still think of the 28th SC.